Reminiscence

Had a very long and honest chat with an old friend of about 10 years last night. A lot of things were revealed to me, most of them ugly, some heartwarming. The topic that came up again and again seems to be about change - how people change over time and why such things happen. How does a person flip around so utterly and completely and yet not be noticed until the transformation is complete? I am talking about changes that occur under our very noses that escapes completely undetected.

Some changes aren't all that surprising though. Still I feel disappointed by the choices they make and the way they decide to condemn others that aren't like them

Removing the rot

One of the many secrets to staying positive is to remove the negative people around you. I'm not only talking about those inherently pessimistic people, but also those who appear cheerful and confident, but at the same time complain and put others down when things don't go their way. It is a slippery slope, a fine dividing line between being an angsty friend and being a hypocrite.

But how to remove such rot when all of us are bounded by the same constraints? Everyday I check twitter and I see a plethora of angry comments and insults. I won't be surprised if some of them were directed at me, since it is human nature to idle talk about others. Nothing wrong with that if idle talk stays that way and not develop into hypocritical insults.

All of these are lessons disguised as hurdles, and I firmly believe in the good of Man. Although sometimes the negativity really escalates and get out of hand.

Another topic that really gets to me is association. How people judges others based on the people they surround themselves with. And usually (stereotypical assumption coming up) the popular crowd will have the largest influence on the views of others but not necessarily representing the most informed of biased-less views.  And so the outcasts can choose to conform to social pressures and succumb to the herd mentality, or band together with the other victims of such slander.

We allow ourselves the love we think we deserve

19th September 2013
Donnerstag

  Finished watching Perks of being a Wallflower. I guess this book really is written to touch and connect with audiences. To instil a sense of nostalgia, and to provoke memories. Honestly speaking, I could feel for the protagonist. Not his emotional scarring from childhood, but rather his process of finding himself and bringing out the good in others. 

  Something was mentioned that struck with a chord within me. 

“You can't just sit there and put everybody's lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can't. You have to do things.” 

  It is awesome to help others and to place the well being of others before yours. It makes you happy, doesn't get you fat, and does not harm anybody. However there comes a time when we all have to be selfish and be proactive in procuring our own needs and wants. When you start living your life for others, you tend to fade out into the background and be taken for granted. I don't mean to sound cynical here, but humans are as such. Appreciation turns into expectations after a while. And before long, your life belongs to everyone else but yourself.

  You can never read another person's thoughts no matter how close the both of you are. Too often misunderstandings happen because people assume, or think that they have delivered the message clearly simply by dropping hints. If these subtle messages are picked up and interpreted the right way, things will proceed smoothly. But when messages are left out, or misinterpreted, often confusion will occur that leads to unnecessary, but inevitable anguish. Anyhow, being passive will probably bore your love, and passion, away and leave you an empty husk.

Settling in

17 September 2013
Dienstag

Wow! It has been quite a while since I last sat in front of the PC and typed away for a blog entry. More than three years to be exact. While the blogging craze has died down significantly, it feels rather "old school" to be out here setting up a new blog. Just fifteen minutes ago, I logged into my old blogger account with an old email account (I have changed two email accounts in the meantime) and surprised myself to find my blogs still intact and existing, albeit a little outdated. And having not blogged for such a long time, I feel rather awkward trying to write something here. It sort of feels like I'm trying too hard to impress, or to fit in with the celebrity bloggers. *shrugs* To each his own I must say. 

So the reason for the creation of this whole new blog instead of carrying on the old one I had years and years ago, is not to hide away my past. Instead it is to celebrate the present day, and my search for inner peace as well as to keep track of the many events in my life. I've been thinking a lot recently. That is something that I have not really been doing frequently ever since I entered the army. And this blog shall serve as a medium for me to record my words and thoughts. I shall attempt to notate down my feelings as best as I can and not sugar coat them.

Recently, quite a large portion of my thoughts are directed towards interpersonal relationships. One of the biggest realisation I had? That all the anger and pain I feel will pass. And that there is no point in holding on to the past if it does you no good. In short, I realised that if you keep holding on to negative energies, then there will not be any room for positiveness within you.

Well, I shall stop trying to act all philosophical now. If anyone has any comments, opinions or simply want to say hi and keep in contact, feel free to write me a comment or drop me a message. 

Cheers!