A little happiness alone

There is always a little part of you deep down that yearns to be accepted into the cool group, to be welcomed into the spotlight, to have a little bit of attention every now and then. Then there is always that other bit, buried deep under that seeks to walk and wander alone, to appreciate the beauty of silence, of spending time with yourself.

Happiness comes from understanding that you don't need to be happy to be happy. Having all your dreams come true does not necessarily mean that you'll achieve happiness. There is a different kind of satisfaction just being by yourself. A kind of a bittersweet peaceful feeling that you don't usually find in being someone else.

I do wonder about what people think about me, but after understanding that no one has any power over the opinion of others, it doesn't really matter that much. If you don't matter enough for them to understand you deeper, then they don't matter enough to take away your chance to be happy.

One way of getting back at others is to be genuinely happy. Just imagine how pissed off they'd be when they see you smiling and laughing, when they would be expecting to see you all glum and bitter.

Being on my own more often these days, working or walking, really gave me a new insight on my feelings. I do feel happier in a different way. I feel less of a need to be in control because control is simply an illusion. The only things you can control are your thoughts and reactions.